Here's To The KaKaKaties!

"The truth is you could slit my throat And with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt"

I listened to that song for the first time in a long while and the only thing I could think of while I was singing at the top of my lungs (-lol-) was "woah, I always said that lyric was how I felt about Eeyore" and looking back on it my only emotion over the whole thing was "Wow how pathetic" I just can't believe that I ever felt that way.

This then reminded me of my ALL time fav episode of Sex In The City. The one where Carrie finally has an epiphany about her and Mr. Big's relationship. Those of you who know me know that I have my own Mr. Big whom I like to refer to as Eeyore (long story). Now, when I first saw this ep I balled and balled cause it was EXACTLY how I felt but it wasn't until recently (when I was in a new relationship) that I was able to take the advice I learned from Carrie (who has helped me though a LOT I don't care how crazy that sounds -lol-) I was finally able to let go of all those hostile feeling towards Eeyore. And it feels Aaamazing! I'm able see the error of my past ways. Some people just aren't meant to be no matter how hard you try ('Notebook' romances should be left to the romance novels). It's not really anyone's fault, it's a simple matter of you just don't work. You're almost soulmates, not true soulmates. But I'm glad that I had in in my life because with out him I'd never realize that sometimes what you think is your fairytale ending is really just a step to that ending.

From now on I choose to remember the good times we had and if I ever see him again I'd simply say "Your girl is lovely Hubble." Then go in peace.

As far as the last line in the ep. (The one that's been my personal mantra since I heard it YEARS ago)...Us katies/carries/wild horse aren't meant to be tamed but we are also not meant to run 100% wild our whole lives (that's just exhausting) what we need to find is someone who will let us have balance in our lives.

So, here's to us free spirits and to the hope that all of you are able to find the person that helps to put balance to your life.

♥ B