Friday, June 26, 2009


I spent a little over $30 on twi-merch last night *hangs head in shame*

In my defense NONE of it was a screen printed tote/shirt no it was "classy" merch that doesn't scream "I'M AN OBSESSED FREAK" -lol- And all of it was stuff I would have bought even if it wasn't Twilight related! Though I'm very tempeted to pre-order Ken as Edward, but only because my Gay Ken (oh yeah I have one in BOX -lol-) needs another pretty boy to keep him company.

Ok so the real point of all of this is to distract me from the fact that in about 20 mins I have to start getting ready to go to the specailist....all alone....feeling like compelete shit...... But I'm not going to throw a little pitty party nope I'm trying to be done with that. Form now on I'll be tackling my sickness with a new motto "Put your big girl panties on and deal with it!" (That was one very wise womens siggy on a cruise forum I was looking at last night).

Alright, I need to go get myself and the ebay shit I need to ship today ready. Wish me luck!


p.s. Before I got I want to share my purchases with you to prove that they are not THAT bad!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Scarlett O'Hara--The Prefect Role Model

Scarlett has taught me soo many important life lessons but the most important one (and the one I'm going to share with you today) is don't waste all your time on Ashley because he's never going to leave Millie for you and in then end it will cost you, your soulmate, Rhett.

With all the false hope most movies, and books give us girls, Scarlett's there to tell us the truth. In real life Mr. Big doesn't come to rescue you in Paris, let alone marry you. Nope, I'm sorry to say that but like Ashley, Mr. Big would end up with someone else and leave you chasing endless after someone who will never truly love you. Now, I know the Ashley's are cute and the seem to be the prefect, clean cut, can bring him home type but underneath that they're actually jerks!!! They lead us poor Scarletts on and on knowing full well they're never going to leave their Melanies (no matter how silly and boring they are!!! I know I know I don't get what they see in them either!)

And you know what I don't really care let the Melanies have the dumbass Ashleys!! Ashley would have never helped Scarlett get out of Atlanta while it was burning, He was just too moral to have stolen the horses, and forget jumping through flames and all the other fancy action hero stuff Rhetty did to get Scarlett out safely!

But Rhett did!! Yes, Rhett has his flaws too but he's exciting, hott, and he truely loves Scarlett! And lets face it Rhett is a waaayyyy better name for a hunk then Ashley!!!!

The point I want my fellow princesses to gain from this little rant is please don't screw over Rhett for Ashley because if you do it one too many times you'll find yourself watching him walk away after he finally says "Frankly, My Dear I don't give a damn" ['Frankly' isn't in the book but I like the line better that way = ) ]

♥ B

Scarlett: Sir, you are no gentleman.
Rhett Butler: And you, Miss, are no lady.

Monday, June 15, 2009

My New BFF

Since I start my internship tomorrow I thought I should find out a lil background info on my BFF for the Summer, Mary Todd Lincoln. Now, at first I wasn't too excited about this because let's face it when you think of fun, interesting, fashionable first ladies Miss Mary doesn't exactly jump in your mind. Well, after a little reading I discovered me and Mary have much more in common then I first though. She's actually quite interesting too.

What brought on this change of heart?? Well, that's simple Mary and I have bonded. Over what you may ask. That would be the most surprise thing I found out you see we share a love for shopping and extravogant/flashy things in life. We also boned over the unavoidable side effect of that card deb = /

Mary was def a fashionista and shopohlic. She always wanted to have the best and most extavagant gowns and jewlry. And like most of us shopaholics her love of the finer things caused her to have a lil bit of debt from shopping = )

"I must dress in costly materials. The people scrutinize every article that I wear with critical curiosity. The very fact of having grown up in the West, subjects me to more searching observation. To keep up appearances, I must have money -- more than Mr. Lincoln can spare for me. He is too honest to make a penny outside of his salary; consequently I had, and still have, no alternative but to run in debt." Conversation with Elizabeth Keckley in the summer of 1864. SOURCE: Behind the Scenes, Or, Thirty Years a Slave, and Four Years in the White House by Elizabeth Keckley (New York, Penguin Books, 2005), p. 66.

I'm no longer dreding spending my summer getting to know Miss Mary. I'm actually looking forward to it.

♥ B

p.s. so yeah my doctor that I HATE told me today that everything is perfect and has no idead why I feel like I'm dying so I now have to go to a specialist........................

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


So, I wasn't a big fan of the new director, Chris Weitz, until I read the interview he did for

Here's my fav part....
Q. You’re a very visual director. What’s your vision for New Moon?
A. We’ve got an amazing visual effects team. The whole idea is to use the full palette of colors, to have our shadows be very dark and to have our colours be very rich so that we can experience the full range of emotional texture. The idea is that this will look like a Victorian narrative painting in a way, with those medieval jewel-like colours as well as very glossy deep blacks, and for the composition of the frames to be classical. In some ways, this is going to be a rather old-fashioned film. There are elements that incorporate the latest technology and there are things that are very dynamic in the action scenes. But it’s more Dr. Zhivago than Iron Man.

Now I'm tres excited times a million. And I guess 30 Days of Night was an aaamazing film visually (even if the ending BLEW). He is now forgiven for the past hanus comment towards the Twilight Saga.

♥ B
**Correction** David Slade, the director of Eclipse (my second only to the first fav book of the saga) is the one who did 30 Days Of Night. Sorry!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Hello Dolls

First of all sorry about the lack of updating but I have an VERY VERY valid reason. Secondly, the rest of this post is just going to be me venting about my reason I've been MIA so if your not up for reading that then please be on your way = ) ......

Ok so for like the past 3-4 months I've been getting really sick after I eat. At first I didn't think much of it cause certain greasy foods has always made me sick ( it's my second fam curse -lol-) so I figured it was just that. But then I started getting sick after eating a salad...ok now I'm pretty sure lettuce and cheese shouldn't make a person feel like they want to die, and then I started waking up sick. One night I even has to leave a party because I felt sick after eating mashed potatoes at Applebees!!!! That's what made me realize that it wasn't just a normal GI problem and it was time to go to the doctor. So last week I went to the doctor's and had was told it was most likely my gallbladder. So I went and had an ultra sound, which came back showing nothing was wrong. Then my doctor (who I hate and only trust as far as I can throw) still thinking it was my gallbladder had me go in and get a nuclear imaging test. For those of you who don't know what this is it's where they inject you with radioactive fluid then make you lay on a table while they take pics of you organs. Needless to say I had more then a few reservations about getting this done. One-I have terrible veins and HATE getting IV's in because it's also an ordeal trying to get the damn thing it. This time was no exception I have to bruises to prove it! The other problem I had with this thing was I absolutely HATE putting shit into my body that isn't naturally supposed to be there it just freaks me out. But I am sick and desperate to get better so I went ahead and had the test done thinking it would it be and I'd finally have an answer. Well after the results came back I was told my gallbladder was perfectly healthy.....So now I had to go get blood work done (which is where I was this morning) and hopefully after that we would know whats going on.

So that's where I am now....I'm just soooooo tried of being sick. The only way I've been getting through these past 3-4 months reasonably well is by praying to God that he would come and help me make it. Now I'm not one of those uber christian I actually think God gets just as annoyed with them as we do. (every time I see one I imagine God face palming -lol-). But he gets all the credit for me being able to function right now. With out his help I'd honestly never being able to get out of bed. That's how sick I am....I'm twenty fucking three years old I'm glad I have his help but I shouldn't have to get on my knees every morning and ask God to help me through the day! I feel like I'm 63. I have to start my internship on Monday and I don't know if I'm going to be able to do it......I just want to wake up tomorrow and be better........

I hate not wanting to go out, or being around anyone. I hate feeling tired. I hate being in pain. I hate having to go to the doctor more then once a week only to hear they can't find out what's wrong. I just hate this sitch all together. Oh and it only gets better...if everything on the blood test comes back fine my only other option for what's wrong is colon caner. YAY ME! Yeah.....I'm just praying for something on the blood test to come back weird cause I can deal with anything that's not cancer (a form of cancer my G Grandma and Grandpa died of )

Alright I'm done with the pity party.
♥ B